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WELL. It's been a long time since I've posted here...mostly because I have relegated quite a few of my posts to Dreamwidth, but I figured it was due time to update here as well! The month has sped by hasn't it...I'll be 26 in a week and a bit! Gosh...I'm excited...a little nervous. I have a lot still planned for the rest of the year! I really wish I could have seen Spamalot before it closes but oh well...Good luck to everyone with their future endeavors...

Now now...what have I been up to...working mostly! I saw Beetlejuice live a two or so weeks ago, and it was just as amazing as I'd hope it would be...I also got to see Corteo in person finally!!! It was absolutely beautiful, and I can't wait to write about it in full on my actual journal. I may link or make a crosspost of that one, as well as the ones I have planned for Beetlejuice. I will be seeing the show again in June, so maybe I'll wait to do a full retrospective post until then. What else do I have to yap about...Hohum...Not much, sadly! I've been working quite a bit, and it will probably continue like that up until the fall!

I do plan on going to New York this autumn to join my friends for their little Halloween festivities, maybe I'll be gutsy and post pictures of that here once I do. I'll be going as the Delia Deetz in their Beetlejuice group! I can't wait to be a neurotic stepmother. How exciting. Anyway! I think that's about all for now, talk soon!

mood: hungry
listening to: The Tarantulas - Tarantula
reading: various fanfics-- lovingly recommended by Cat.

I got my wisdom teeth removed a few days ago! Things are going...well enough...but I'm so hungry!

I really wish I could be eating something other than mashed potatoes, pudding, and applesauce, but until I really figure out how to deal with my stitches and all that I'm just going to be careful. I've been more sore than anything, so I've been trying to not to talk much and keep up on my medication as much as I can.

I've been in a bit of a low mood today, and I know the reason why, but it feels very silly to be feeling the way I currently do. Sometimes I wish my mood swings weren't so extreme, or that my brain didn't just decide to categorize things as much worse than they actually are. I am learning how to do this on my own, but it still gets to be a bit much when all of a sudden my whole day is ruined for a bit because of something. Once things are a little bit more together, I would like to get back on an antidepressant, but after what happened with Zoloft, I have been a bit nervous.

I know it's all about trying new things and seeing what works, but gosh it's really disheartening when something doesn't work out. Especially when it's worked in the past, or it's worked so well for a majority of people...Regardless, I haven't been too kind to myself today. Which could be leading to the problem as well. I think going back to work on Friday will help a lot, giving me something to focus on and distract myself. I'm thinking of picking up another day during the week, just for a while so I can stack a little money. We'll see how that goes.

I wish I could think straight enough to really go into how things have been going, but I have felt so loopy since I got these teeth out. Luckily, little to no pain, and what pain I have had has been controlled by Tylenol pretty well! Which I'm really glad about. Going to try to brush my teeth tonight, and hope for my healing to keep going well. I will have to tell my boss that I can't talk much, and I will be wearing a mask when I go back to work- I only hope that she will understand that...I guess we'll see.

Aside from all that, I have still been tinkering away with my beetlejuice page... I need to update the Justinjuice page so bad, because I have absolutely fixated on Collette's portrayal of him for a little while now and I need everyone to understand why I love him so much and why they should too. Anyway. That's all for now.

mood: hungry
listening to: youtube video
reading: various fanfics

She is typing a blog post at work yet again. It's slow this morning, so I figured it was a good enough time to make a little post again! Things have been...okay more or less...We moved into the new house fully, but there are some things that need to be fixed...More than we expected, but it should be doable as we both work over time...

Aside from that, things have been more or less the same! is looking like March is going to be a busy month! I'm supposed to be driving up to SC to see Corteo, and then the Beetlejuice tour will be coming to the Fox! I'm super excited to try and see it...I'd really like to...I'm very very excited. I've been fiending for a chance to for a while, so I'm absolutely thrilled that it's coming here! Expect plenty of pictures and videos and writings and what have you...I've never seen Justin Collette as Beetlejuice, as I've been refusing to watch any clips because I want to be surprised!

I'm very fond of Alex Brightman's Beej performance, cheeky and chubby is my favorite...That's all for now, please look forward to a Corteo and a BJ review once I see both next month!

mood: hungry
listening to: youtube video
reading: various fanfics

I am at work as I type this, no idea why they started having me do close/opens on Sundays, but I guess it's a simple enough shift...I can't say it's my favorite day to work, but it's something. Some of the customers that come in on Sundays are very rude and stand-offish, no idea if it's because they're usually tourists or if Sunday is just the day to be grumpy.

I had to do some inventory processing a few days ago, and it was one of he harder things I've had to do, especially by myself! It's easy when I have a coworker assisting me, but having to put 100+ items in the system and try to build a display shelf for them? Yipes! I ended getting a large chunk of them done, but I still had a whole box left for the morning shift to do. They did end up whipping through the rest of them luckily, and thanked me for organizing them so that all that had to be done was updating the numbers in the system.

This morning I tried that new Pink Velvet syrup at Dunkin and I was really hoping it would have more of a flavor than just 'sweet', but it really just tasted like sugar syrup! Oh well. I'm waiting for a free moment so I can eat my strawberry donut, I've been craving one of these for a long time- I'm not usually able to stop for breakfast before work but I was really lucky this morning! I got an iced coffee of course even though it is super cold. (cold for me anyway.)

I slept at the new house on my new shikibuton last night! It was great, I'm really happy I got it as a gift for christmas. It was really appreciated...I'm hoping to get a shelf soon to start putting my stuff up, it feels wild to see all my stuff again! I'm really happy we were able to get into a new house though. Can't wait to get more or less back to normal...That's all for now me-thinks! TTYL!

mood: sleepy
listening to: kitchen nightmares episode
reading: nothing currently

still working like always, they did agree to give me an extra day off! so i'm glad about that. i don't plan to be working like this forever, but for now- i do need the extra day, especially while helping out my mom and moving. otherwise, things are ok. we stopped by and moved some things around the house today. i do like my room a lot. it's smaller, but i feel like that will be a good thing for me, especially because i plan to downsize some more of my stuff once we do move.

aside from all that, i have been working on a new carrd/page for goti'a because he needed it very badly. i also finally found a body mod that lets him not be so dreadfully prettyboy ingame. if only i could find a way to mod all of his scars day...

i don't have a ton to update on for now, but i did want to write something today regardless. until next time!

mood: sleepy
listening to: youtube video
reading: A Wide Collar & Short Leash - Malcoholic

the new year so far has been quite a bit odd, between my mother getting injured and things at work going's a lot to put up with so far! But I'm doing the best I can with what I got, and I can only hope it continues to get easier with time. I did some research about going back to school today, and while I'm still not completely sure, I really would like to make that a goal either by the end of this year, or by the start of next year. We'll see where I end up.

Other than that, I have been doing a lot of rp these days, specifically longterm rp with a new friend I'd made. I love her to death honestly, and I love writing alongside her, she is just a joy to be around. I'm hopeful to start writing physical letters to her sometime soon, so I'm really looking forward to that! I picked up a few postcards and other things with the plan to send them to her earlier today, and there's a few other things I'd had my eye on getting for her, so we'll see!

I'm looking forward to reducing my hours at work slightly in the coming weeks. While I do like working a lot because it keeps me busy and up on my feet so I don't really have the time to fall into a rut, I believe that recently I've been working a bit too hard. As I've felt very burned out, and I've lost a lot of weight. I'm hoping having an extra day off for a while will help me mentally and physically, so I'll have to see how that goes.

I recently picked up a few new options for journaling-- A Hobonichi Planner a5, with a cover by Hiroko Kubota, and a midori diary in a cute whale shark variant design. I'm hoping that physically journaling will help me too, maybe I'll scan the pages I do sometime. That's all I really have to say for right now, until next time.

mood: sleepy
listening to: vinesauce miitopia stream vod
reading: two for tea: welcome to azathé - c.m. nascosta

It's the end of the year, and what a year it has been. So much has happened that I don't even think I can really paraphrase everything here. Things have changed, most for the better, and I have done my best trying to get used to them.

i am very grateful for my job and my family and the friends i have made. even though the end of this year has been quite devastating, it has gotten better and better over time. i can only hope it continues, and i think it will.

i don't have that much else to say currently, but i will try to post a longer update and book / fanfic / etc review when i have the time- as i'm currently working fulltime at my job.

happy new year, i hope this one is great.

mood: sleepy
listening to: youtube video
reading: moon blooded breeding clinic - c.m. nascosta

this is really just a test post if anything, i just want to see how this looks, and how i like it. happy holidays, i'll have more to post about in due time.